Choose Yourself✨🪴🍄🧘🏿‍♀️🤍✨

Words of advice: keep choosing yourself even if it might be the hardest decision. Why would choosing yourself be hard? Sometimes you want others to choose you, to see you, to love you, to validate you; maybe their doing so gives you reasons that you are worthy. It's hard choosing yourself because that would mean you have to hold yourself accountable. Certain things like "so and so didn't show me love or see my worth so that's why I'm like this or don't believe in this" does not exist when we decide to choose ourselves. We can't force anybody to see who we are. We are human and desperately want to be seen, chosen, accepted, to feel wanted, and to experience love, but the hard truth is not everyone will do that for you. IF we leave it to others to decide our validation, our love, and our visibility we would be pouring into a bottomless cup praying one day it would be filled. In choosing ourselves we would have to acknowledge that yearning for outside validation, agree to no hold the value of its importance, make a conscious effort to switch the narrative to our own, and actively pursue a life that puts us bare and naked for the world to see but yet choosing not to care and that shit is hard and scary. Choosing myself means not giving someone access to me because they can not see me for who I am. Choosing myself means showing up as myself and not how I THINK others might want me to be. Choosing myself means dealing with the uncomfortable feelings about myself that I either numb with smoking or have chosen to lock away deep inside of me. Looking for someone to tell me "you are enough, you are inspiring, you are gifted, you are beautiful and your soul is divine" shouldn't be my narrative, but it was & I acknowledge that. I acknowledge that I used parts of me that I knew people would accept in order to get in the door hoping that eventually, they would see me in my entirety. I waited for them to validate that I was this beautiful being, that I deep down knew I was but I wanted someone to see it to say it, so it would materialize in my mind and I can start believing it. No matter if people see it or not , if you do not believe it for yourself it will never resonate with you and you will constantly search for it from others, denying that its truth is inside of you. Choosing yourself means validating yourself; loving yourself, not so that others can love you but so that others can bring it to you and it not be so foreign. When you choose yourself you attract others that want to choose you too; others that make the conscious decision to see you, to hear you, to love you, and to walk with you in your journey, to help you in your journey in choosing you. There are people out there that will accept you for you, will pour into you, will reassure you, will uplift you, will co-sign your own validation, will see you, will love you and all you have to be is be, love, & validate yourself. Choosing yourself is a hard journey, and every day you make a conscious decision to continue to do so but it is so rewarding. Keep choosing you, my love, don't ever stop choosing you. Let those who really see you choose you and leave the ones who can't in the dark.

I love you,

-Ify🤎