Lets be Real 🤥

I don't really have a clue what is going on in my life, well I kind of feel like I know and I don't know at the same time which can be pretty frustrating. I am certain I am meant to do things that involve spreading love, compassion, fun, realness, and standing in truth but I really don't know exactly how it is supposed to be transmuted on a larger scale. Realistically everyone can't be this big and important thing so for a minute I was like well yeah let me just be simple and fade into the background, maybe that life is meant for somebody else. Y'all know that Chingy song ft Tyrese, pulling me back?; "Every time I try to leave something keeps pulling me back." That's exactly how it feels when I try to play the background, when I think things need to be simple, something just won't let me fold to it. So here is where the frustration comes in because if I know there is a certain magnitude that needs to be reached & I know what they involve, how in the heck am I supposed to make it happen & why isn't it happening now? Maybe it's not supposed it happen now. Maybe I just want it to happen now because currently, I feel like I'm not where I need to be. Maybe this period of stagnation is the grounding for the foundation of the fortress that is destined to be built. Maybe maybe maybe lol! The truth of it all is I don't know anything, I'm on this big ride apparently & I can't get off I guess, so yeah we'll just have to see where this goes 😁.

Cheers & Ciao!

-Ify